It has been a while I completely
forgot Just a Topic. It is not because I was completely occupied and even did
not have a couple of minutes of leave short notes or quick updates, but it is
because I was and is very lazy blogger who remembers to blog only when I have
absolutely nothing else to do in order to kill the time. I browsed to my own
blog a couple of time during this period, but never bothered to write a fresh
post for it.
When I thought about drafting
this post, I was completely fed up by watching TV for more than 6 hours,
browsed through all of the social networking accounts that I had been subscribed
to; went through the headline news from Curiosity to RONAST updates, Dr.
Baburam Bhattarai’s resignation demand by opposition to US Presidential
Election debates, Manmohan Singh’s corruption controversy to G4S failure on
London Olympic; had chitchat with friends on Skype, GTalk, Facebook and also
completed reading few of the technical articles. Now, my mind reminded me that
there used to be a blog for which I hadn’t composed any post from at least one
year or even more than that. Absolutely, what could be the better time for it
to contribute than this one when I have no task at all to kill my time.
Also, my heart felt somewhat “sensible”
to my readers whom I should explain about my absentees from the blog. My mind
immediately reacted saying that where did it “Sensitivity” gone when you were
disappeared from the blog for more than a year. Ultimately my heart won and
convinced the mind that I must ask for forgiveness with some “reasonable
excuses”. I did not prefer to phrase it
with ‘reasoning’ or ‘explanation’ or similar one but with “excuse”, because
whatsoever I might explain it with; it is actually the excuse to hide my
laziness.
Then, the mind and heart got
engaged in an inconclusive debate of whether to present genuine and not genuine
excuses with logical or illogical reasoning. Ultimately, I got them settled
with the agreement that the list of excuses will be “inclusive” of both of
their concerns. Seems like they also got influenced with current Nepalese
political trend of being “inclusive” in one way or another and not to get it on
compromising level and keep on insisting unless their opinion is heard, with no
matter even if other party is much logical and also bringing the take that will
eventually benefit both of the parties.
Once I began drafting the list of
excuses, it kept on growing from tens to hundred and hundreds to thousand as
the list is inclusively influenced by the personal and rivalry interest of both
heart and mind. When one enforced to include the excuse stating post could not
be composed due to busy schedule, another objected that it has nothing to do
with busy schedule as composing a post is just matter of couple of minutes. Several
excuses were brought to front, discussed, discussed and discussed but none of
them led to agreement. The conflict rose because of the debate on using words
of individual interests on phrasing the excuses. Sometimes it gave an
impression that some of the excuses will be agreed and eventually the post will
appear on blog, but it never happened as Kidney, Liver and Lung fueled the
conflict by persuading conflicting bodies of their interests. The conflict
started with logical debate. Gradually it took the shape of quarrel for
personal interest protection. Eventually, they kept on insisting and led to
deadlock to protect their individual egos with the fear of being tagged of the
failure to establish their own interest. Ultimately, the list remained indecisive
as nobody wants to give credit of the finalization of the list to either of the
party even if the list may include the interest of all of them.
Meanwhile, nobody thought about
me, the blogger, who is losing the face to its readers. I always thought that
the blog had been deserted for a long because of my laziness. But now, with the
inherent of my own inseparable heart and mind, I am forced to doubt whether it
was my laziness or their dispute that prevented me to blog for a long period,
keeping me in distant with my readers.
